I want to share something.

Something in my spirit.

A friend said to me recently:

I have no idea how you managed to keep working, keep writing, keep doing what you do, when you are so busy with three children, have other writing contracts, do the worship thing and the veterinary thing and the wife thing and, and....  Websites take so much work - you pour your time, your life, your creativity into this thing with no guarantee of a return.  Why are you doing this?

That friend knows how hard this is - she has gone the way of the website and knows the hours spent.  And I know she was connecting with me authentically and empathizing and whatnot, but that little question watered seeds of doubt that already live rent-free in my soul.  

You see - I am the type of person who will lay awake at night agonizing whether I have done the right thing.  Little thoughts creep up on me as I'm trying to fall asleep and ask sceearrry questions like:

Is this website where I should spend my precious time?  My energy?  My creativity?  My fullest expression?

Do I want to be this vulnerable and intimate on the world wide web?  I mean, it is world wide!  Eek!  I don’t even know who I will be sharing these details with!  Do I want to get slammed for showing up and being who I am?  Do I want to deal with energy sucking Misfit haters?  Do I????

Am I wasting my time?  Will my little voice ever, ever be heard in this vast online universe?

Will I ever be able to support my family through this?

The thoughts niggle at me.  Niggle, niggle, niggle.

And yet...here’s the thing:

This website – this funny, beautiful thing of writing and taking messages from God and helping other people - it brings me joy. 

It energizes me.

I feel genuine love for the people who might be reading these words.  You there - you reading this sentence.  Hi.  I THINK I LOVE YOU.

The people I have shared this website with so far are the sweetest, kindest, most brilliant, considerate and respectful people I have ever known.  People longing to express who they are and are grateful I have given voice to their words.  They are also funny...and insightful.

Even though it is exhausting and I’ve already got so much going on, it feels right.   

With steadfast faith, I know I am exactly where I need to be, doing what I need to be doing.

I can’t help but be who I am, and I love doing this Misfit work with all my heart.

So I say:

It is exactly what I need. It is the thing I was born to do.



So here is ze plan:  generally I will write on things I have personal experience and education in - my goal is to help you not have to reinvent the wheel and learn without some of the pain.  And laugh.  That is always nice. 

The categories I have in mind are:

Misfit Worship Leader:

Ha - I have LOADS of experience not fitting in here, and spent years serving from a place of scarcity, not good enough and fear.  BAH!  NO MORE!  We will leave no stone unturned - if you are a worship leader or worship volunteer, my goal with this category for you is to experience freedom, empowerment, and full expression of your gifting wherever you serve.  I am so excited for the body of Christ - there are so many of you out there with gifts lying dormant just waiting for the prison doors to open up!  May you rise up on wings like eagles, blessed worshipper.

Misfit Mama:  

Motherhood came calling.  I was not ready.  My goal for these posts are to show you that even in mommydom, expressing and nurturing your Sacred Misfit is possible.  It is also my goal to make you laugh.  I have three children and a LOT of stories.  I can’t wait to hear yours as well - and I am hoping to form a community of Misfit Mommies that can listen and laugh and feel supported.  I love you.

Misfit Money:

I have had a love/hate relationship with money.  It used to have power over me, and I would derive my security from it.  It was so bad I would feel THREATENED OPENING MY ONLINE BANK ACCOUNT. 

Whoa!  Sorry about the shouting...land the plane Sarah.

I will share with you how I went from having an emotional attachment to cash to viewing it as simply numbers.  When money does not have power over you, you can do amazing things.  From living paycheck to paycheck, to stuffing our entire family into a two bedroom apartment for a year, to living in our dream home for half of what it should cost, to no longer worrying about money, I will tell you everything I know.

Misfit Business:

All things entrepreneurish.  We are going to talk about the possibly of turning the thing that makes your heart sing into a profitable enterprise.  There is a new term for it: passion-based entrepreneurship - and it can work.  I will also share my journey of forming an LLC, an S Corp, tax stuff, website stuff, marketing for people who hate marketing (really!), and one of my favorite topics: passive income.    Money that works for you while you sip margi's?  Um, yes please.

Misfit Soul Care:

This category is where you and I will connect most deeply, my dear one.  This is my passion - sharing from my heart what I have learned in the art of soul care and seeing spirit after spirit after spirit receive freedom, take flight and soar.  I can not wait to share everything I have learned about compassion, shame, play, waiting, spirituality, mindfulness, etc. etc. etc.  God wants so much for you my dear one. 

Healthy Misfits:

We only get one body. It is helpful to remember it is the only place we get to live.  The worst things we can feed our bodies are shame, refined sugars and white flour.  The healthiest and most loving thing you can feed your body is appreciation, boundaries, rest, play, balanced omega fatty acids and fresh produce.  I haven’t always treated my body the best, actually spent most of my 20’s trashing the place.  Then I remembered it is the only house I will ever have, and I committed to care for it to the best of my ability, repair what I could and lovingly accept the rest.  

All houses have structural weirdnesses, the thing to remember is that the old houses have character, and everyone wants more of that. You get to know the weak, odd areas and work around them.  You make peace with the pipes that freeze in the laundry room (sigh).  You have love for the home that houses your Sacred Misfit, even if you would have chosen a smaller back door.

In this category, we will talk about how to care for your soul house.  :-)

There is another funny thing.

I’m not entirely sure what I will be offering here on this website.  I mean, I know that I desire to provide a supportive, loving environment for Misfits to gather, and I know I want to share the story of how I was introduced to my own Sacred Misfit.  I know I can provide speaking and teaching and lead worship and sell pet products, etc., but what else as of yet 

I have no idea.

And it’s a leeeeeeetle frustrating. And scary.  Boo!

I know I am breaking all marketing rules to reveal this to you, but I gotta tell ya, what is the point if I am not being completely, 100% truthful and authentic with you?

The gol darn truth is I have no idea what new products/services/courses I’ll be offering. 
Or what my business will be selling. 

So I ask God.  

And when I do, the Spirit says quietly:

“That will come in time. For right now, focus on aligning your website to your new energy, and then draw huge crowds to you. More people need to know about your work, and you need to share your story openly and clearly and with an open heart. Don’t worry about the products, just do what is in front of you right now.”

So, for the time being, that is what I am going to do.  

The fear that I don’t know what I am ultimately going to offer is legitimate, so I am just going to let it be there.  I am going to take a few deep breaths, let myself off the hook and enjoy the process.  

In fact, I am going to play.  

Do you have something going on right now without a clear answer? Do you feel stuck? 

See if this will help you:

I am imagining this website as a jigsaw puzzle.  First, I will sort through all the pieces to find the edges because these pieces are the easiest to find and put together.  

There.  Now I have a frame.

Then I will take my time sorting through the rest of the pieces and gradually, one piece at a time, the puzzle will come together.  I have time, this is about having fun and enjoying the process.  

If I get tired, or uninspired or frustrated, or if I just want to do something else, I will get up, walk away and not stress about whether I will ever finish this puzzle.  

Some days I’ll spend an hour or two, other times only minutes.  Maybe I will just walk by and like magic, pop a piece into place.  Maybe you, my amazing Misfit, will stop by for a visit, pick up a piece that has been driving me INSANE for a couple of days, and pop it right into place.  

I love that about you.

The Misfits Speak

How are these categories sitting with you?  Do they resonate?  Is there anything else you might like to hear about?  Which category speaks most to you - can you please let me know in the comments?

We don’t give advice here...unless someone specifically asks you for it.  We also don’t tell others how to think or feel....that is not the Misfit way.  We are here to respectfully and authentically share our journeys.

If it gets challenging, we interact mindfully with what is being stirred.  We are are open, curious, and notice the thoughts and feelings as they come up.  We respond to each other with loving thoughts and feelings.  Or genuine cheers.  Or whatever feels right.  

We all have junk.  We are responsible for our junk and we let others have their junk as well.  

My love to all who comment, lurk, and everyone who comes by for a visit.  I am so glad you are here.  

Thank you Horia Varlan for your awesome jigsaw puzzle pics.  They were exactly what I needed.

~the Sacred Misfit

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Have a glorrrrrrrrious day.